January 2014

I can't figure it out. Maybe I'm doing something wrong. It's supposed to be the time of my life, I mean, I'm almost 20, isn't that the period when you're doing all these fantastic things you're gonna talk about when you're old& have grandchildren?! Why is it then that I have the feeling that I'm missing out. There are so many things I wanna do right now. Being in London or at the beach, kissing someone, being at a bar with a lot of friends, learning how to play the piano. Kind of those things..
But instead, I'm sitting in my 6m² little room without Internet and just cried while I was watching 'The notebook' for the first time. I mean, don't get me wrong, is really is a beautiful and sad movie but you have to know, it is a Friday night and all my friends here in England are out together while I digged out with the lame excuse of a stomach-ache. Proper creative I am.
I think I'm lost. Got lost between being a teenager and becoming an adult. Maybe thats the way its supposed to be, God's plan- not that I believe in God though.  I don't know!


                                                                                                            Evershot, England - January 2014